Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Go and Skim No More

My hubby asked me this morning when do we turn the clocks back? (Daylight Savings Time... Fall back, Spring forward)... Anyway, I googled it and at first glance I saw, Sunday, October 21st.  Didn't dawn on me that I might have been wrong, (Daylight Savings Time was changed to November a couple of years ago) but I told him, "Oh, this Sunday."  And with that he walked away.  But I got a prompt to google it again.  So I did.  This time it said, Sunday, November 4th.  So I thought to myself, 'How come I didn't see that the first time?' and even googled it a few more times, and binged it to be sure, and that original date or site that I had found before, I could not find.  Not thinking too much of it, I shook it off as it was time for me to go to my hair appointment.

Ok, so what's the point, I hear you saying.  Well, I got to the hair salon and as I was sitting under the dryer, I sent a text to my hubby, telling him of my mistake, saying, "Daylight Savings is Sunday, November 4th.  Guess this is what happens when you skim over stuff, instead of reading it.  (Especially when you don't have your glasses on)."  But almost immediately after I wrote that, I heard God say, "Exactly.  And that's the problem."

“Too many of My people are skimming over stuff instead of paying attention to it.  He said that we are skimming over the Bible, instead of reading it.  He said that we are skimming over His instructions, instead of doing them.  He said that we are skimming over life even, instead of living it.  Letting days go by and even years without an appreciation for it and the people that are in it.”

God said those things that are important to us, we take the time to understand.  We pay attention to it.  We read.  We study.  We do.  That so often we pick up His Word and we skim over it, instead of actually reading it.  Reading and understanding is just like hearing and listening.  Just as we can hear something, but not necessarily listen, we can read something, but not necessarily understand.  Understanding requires a step more.  Just like listening requires action (that we take heed to what we hear), understanding requires that we apply our heart to receive wisdom.  To learn something that we did not know before.  

God then said that when I googled the date, I was so set on just getting a date than actually getting information, that I skimmed over what was there and only saw what I was so intent on seeing.  And not only that, because I did not have my glasses on, that only enhanced what I saw.  Or made me believe that what I saw was in fact the case.  He said that sometimes we are so set on getting what we want, on doing what we want, instead of actually doing what is necessary, that we miss it.  And we mess up.  And because we don't have on our spiritual eyes we are convinced that what we are doing is enough.  For whatever we think it is enough of.  Reading, listening, seeing. 

How many of us say that we are going to read the Word, and actually do set out to read the Word, but we walk away with little or no understanding?  Or worse, no revelation?  And how many of us have taken what we thought we read and passed it on to somebody else?  Feeding them false or misinformation.  Bless God that this was only a date about Daylight Savings Time that my husband had asked me.  But what if had been something more?  Like how many times must he forgive somebody?  Or what must I do to be saved?  We do not want to give people misinformation because we cannot take the time to read. 

Lord, Jesus help us.  Lord Jesus, help me.   It’s time to stop skimming and start doing.

God is real.

Be blessed.
Sis. E


Friday, October 12, 2012

I See Dead People

I see dead people.
Everywhere I go.
The mall, restaurants, even in church.
Oh, they don’t know they’re dead.
No.  They’re spiritually dead.
And that makes them blind too.
Oblivious to what is going on around them
And clueless to why things happen the way they do
For them anyway.
They’re like zombies, you know.
They have bodies, but no souls.
Walking around without a purpose.
Searching for something they can’t seem to find.
They’re dead.
Dead people have no vision.
Dead people have no destiny.
And it doesn’t have to be that way you know.
I was dead.
I was dead in my transgressions and sins, 
in the way I used to live when I followed the ways of this world.
Yeah, at one time, I too was dead,
gratifying the cravings of my flesh
and following its desires and thoughts.
But Jesus said that though we are dead,
We can be made alive through Him…

Now awake dead people.
Arise!  And Jesus will give you life.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Free To Love

You know I don’t know what it’s gonna take
I tried in so many ways to show them what they did to me
How much they hurt me
How I feel like they took a knife and stabbed it in my back
And just keep twisting it over and over and over again
Every time I see them
Every time I hear their voice
Every time the subject is brought up
It hurts
Why don’t they just see that Lord?
How many times Lord?
How many times must I hurt? 
Must I forgive? 
I am past the point of loving
I am past the point of bleeding
It’s their turn to bleed now.
After all it wasn’t me who did this to them
It wasn’t me who betrayed them
I continued to love them in spite of it all
I continued to give, I continued to believe
That it would work out
It wasn’t me who believed a lie
And who keeps believing it
Year after year after year after year
It wasn’t me who let them down
It wasn’t me who left, who died.
But I might as well have
As many times as they’ve killed me
Refusing to acknowledge my existence
My life
Who I am and what I care about
Not even caring enough to see it
To give it a second thought
To apologize
It hurts, Lord
And I can’t keep doing this
I can’t keep looking past their fault
And seeing their need
I can’t keep loving them anyway
Praying for them, anyway
I can’t keep crying…

I can’t keep forgiving them, Lord
Just to have them do it all over again
70 x 7 doesn’t work for me
Surely we must be at 500 by now
I know love doesn’t keep count
But how much they must be counting
As every day goes by, as every month goes by
And they refuse to forgive me
Refuse to move on
To let go
of something I haven’t even done
I know I need to forgive them, Lord
I just can’t do that anymore
I am bitter
I don’t want to be
I just want the pain to go away
I just want the hurting to stop
The tears to end
When are YOU going to do something about it?
Vindicate me, for I am innocent.
End the evil of those who are wicked,
and defend me
Cause them to see
Stop them from doing this to me Lord.
My soul hurts
And I long to be cleansed,
I long to be free from this pain
of resentment
of bitterness
of hostility
of anger
of unforgiveness

Forgive them Father for they know not what they do
Forgive me Father, because I do.

I forgive them Lord
And if I forgive other people when they sin against me,
You will also forgive me
And then I will be free again
to love.