Grace and peace.
While I am a little hesitant about sharing this, the desire to please the Lord rather than man, is overwhelming. Because God’s love is overwhelming. How can I not consciously do what He told me to do? I keep hearing if you love Me, keep My commandments. That is everything and anything He tells you to do, regardless of how it might make you look (or sound). Sure it happens often enough that I fail to disobey the Lord, but God is merciful and He yet stands ready to forgive and He loves us so much that in spite of how we listened before, He always calls us to go higher and higher the next time. And be better than how we were on yesterday.
With that said, a song, a “worldly song” some might add, has been going over and over in my head and whenever that happens, God is saying something to me. And I had to stop and really listen.
The song is Beyonce’s Irreplaceable. I must have picked it up n my spirit a couple of weeks ago, while browsing in a department store. Had to be. But anyway, the words go like this, for those of you who don’t know, (or at least don’t want to admit you do) and I am paraphrasing it… “To the left, to the left, everything you own is in the box to the left. “ And it says, “Don’t get me twisted, you must don’t know ‘bout me, I could have another you in a minute, matter fact, he’ll be here in a minute. You must not know ‘bout me, I can have another you by tomorrow, don’t ever for a second get to thinking, you’re irreplaceable.” And since I don’t listen to songs like this, I asked the Lord, okay, Lord what is it with this song? What are You trying to tell me? And this is what He said. Sometimes He asks us to do things, and we do them… reluctantly, halfheartedly, and sometimes we even do them, without leaning on His strength, but in our own power. Pridefully. We steal His glory.
God said that sometimes we get so caught up in our own righteousness that we forget that He is the One that saved us… He is the one that delivered us. He is the one that gives us power. He is the one that blesses us. He is the one that has showered us with the abilities and the talents to do the things we do. He is the one. And we forget that. We forget He is the one. And God said through this song to me, "Don’t get it twisted… you must don’t know about Me. I AM God. I asked you to do something and if you don’t want to do it, I will get somebody else to do it. Don’t ever get to thinking for a second that you are irreplaceable.” A hard word, yes. And I said, “Lord, Jesus. What did I do?” Because whenever He speaks something like this it’s personal, first. And God went on to tell me that every now and then I am still reluctant, I am still hesitant about doing what He asked me to do… I still frown when I am asked to speak. Yes He knows I don’t like to do it, but simply because He asked me to, I should do it. And I do it, but like He said, that natural man comes out first. He said, I still hold on to some things that I should let go of, and even this, I still don’t believe some of the things He tells me. Then He comforted me, because He said I wasn’t alone. Lots of us do these things.
And then He said, "You must don’t know about Me. I gave you that talent, I gave you that gift and I could have another you in a minute. " Then I was reminded that Mordecai had to tell Esther, don’t get it twisted. He told her that if she wasn’t willing to ask the King, God will raise somebody else up to do it. Don’t you think for a moment that you are irreplaceable, Esther? That’s what Mordecai said. And God went on and He said this, "All that stuff you think is yours, it’s in the box to the left. Your talent, it’s in the box, your gifts, they’re in the box. I don’t need them. You can take them with you and do what you may in your own power. You’re not relying on Mine. You don’t know about Me.“
Yes a very hard word, saints. But I am taking heed to the warning. My husband mentioned recently in one of his sermons that if God has told us to do something, we don’t need to stop and think about it, we don’t need to waste time thinking about it, we just need to do it. Anything else is disobedience, no matter how we try to dress it up. Is He God or not? If we can admit it we do get caught up in what we can do. We catch our little attitudes or snit fits when our idea does not go over and then pout inwardly saying, we’re not going to help then. God sees that. And He says fine, don’t. You must don’t know about Me. Then when He tells us something and even confirms it through somebody else, we have a hard time believing Him. God said, "You must don’t know about Me. I AM God and beside Me there is no other.”
Like I said earlier this is not something that I would normally write or even like writing, but it is something that my God has told me to do and since I know about Him I am persuaded to obey.
God is good and He’s real.
A humbled servant of the Lord,
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
You Must Don’t Know About Me
Evelyn Fannell has the true heart of a servant. She spends a great deal of her time assisting friends, family, and others with a variety of plans and projects, always seeking simply to be of help; always going the extra mile. A writer since her youth, in 2008 Evelyn created the blog, But God Is Real, inspired by real life situations and circumstances that speak to the “realness” of God and His intervention in daily life. After the death of her son, Joseph, Evelyn started another blog, In the Shadow of Grief, created to chronicle the emotions and stages of grief so that she could help others through their journey of pain and sorrow. Along with the blog, Evelyn also started a grief support group on Facebook, under the same name, where members can share with one another in a supportive, non-judgmental environment In her spare time, Evelyn enjoys jigsaw puzzles, photography, and planning and creating items for special events. She also serves as First Lady and administrator of her church, On Good Ground Christian Fellowship, in Westampton, NJ. In addition to Joseph, she and her husband, Jeff, have two daughters, Brandi and Jasmine, and a grandson, Christian.